If I could.

Go back 2 or 3 months.
Just to see myself walk into what screwed up everything..I dont think I would be able to help myself making a fist and bludgeoning my face beyond recognition. I don't think I'd stop until my my 3 month younger self was a lifeless body.

For some reason I really loathe myself tonight.

I haven't cried in 2 weeks. I'm going to do it now.

I HATE NOT BEING WITH THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT THE MOST. I didn't think hated anything.. but I really hate that. I violently hate it.

I want to fight someone. I want to just pound the hell out of something.
but I won't unless someone really asks for it



Im not "owning" up to my "part"
Well I hate myself tonight
I hope you sleep better.
Goodnight "brother"

Im gonna try and sleep.

I love everyone I just don't know it yet.
I definitely love you.
Andy

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