Sacrifice.

I sacrificed everything that mattered to me.
I was deceived.

Every single minute of every single day so far has been painful. and its going to be painful.
I don't see how I can carry on like this.
Ive forgiven myself for what Ive done. my friends have forgiven me and ultimately I have been forgiven by God.
Yet this heart wrenching pain remains and the Devil keeps punching it.
I still love you. and you probably don't feel the same way back.

and since this is my blog I am going to say what I want.

You told me that I made you happy. obviously I brought you some sort of Joy.
You told me that You Loved me.

I said I would take care of you. and I still want to.
I said.
I'll love you forever, I'll like You for always, and as long as I'm living my baby you'll be.
and I still mean it.
and it Hurts.
I am sorry.

I Love You.
Forever.
Andrew Stewart